In the past, I held on to everything. Old receipts (where the print had become virtually undetectable), obscure electronic plugins that I have no idea what electronic item they actually attached to, old clothes, socks and earrings without a match. EVERYTHING! However, at the age of 36 years old I was seemingly ready for a new life. It seems so easy writing it now, I’m ready for a NEW LIFE, yeahhhhhhhh! READY 123. But it was probably the hardest thing I have ever done in my entire life.
This life transition was a process that had started before I even knew it began. I wasn’t really as ready as I believed. I think I started to become aware I just signed up for a life change and I was in the middle of the transition when I had been working on a real estate project for Tiny houses. The Tiny house project inspired me to research this minimalist lifestyle. That’s when I found the movie Minimalism on Netflix. The movie was a game changer. I began to slowly get rid of small items in my environment and clear my space. Again I had no idea the journey I was embarking on. I thought I was just doing some research!
After months of delays and project setbacks, the tiny house deal fell through. Okay more like I fell through the deal. A change of direction was abruptly implemented, the change was me. More on that painful but needed life lesson later! That wasn’t the real journey. I was still on the journey I was intended to be on, the one I didn’t know …I was on. I just didn’t know that the tiny house project was simply a catalyst for change that helped me focus on my true journey. Comprenez vous? I had to separate from the project I was entangled in because I never would have let go if the choice was left up to me. I wish there was another way but I have trouble letting go….
Back on my journey, the one that I didn’t know I signed up for or couldn’t find the initial details to what I was to do exactly but I began to move on to what I felt in my heart. I followed my gut. My last words after my… let’s call it “a change in direction” was I want to travel and write. I started to see what else could be eliminated from my life and how I was going to do that. I needed to eliminate everything that was holding me back from my future. It was a deal I never wanted to make. I would be fine just continuing on in my life as it was, but it wasn’t the life that was intended! So after being pushed to the corner just before the ledge, I jumped, I let go screaming & kicking all the way …UP.
“The truth is unless you let go, unless you forgive yourself, unless you forgive the situation, unless you realize that the situation is over, you cannot move forward.”
― Steve Maraboli,